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Suzanne Heyn's avatar

I used to love Instagram! It’s where I first found the courage to authentically express myself and write online. I built a community around my writing, and IG helped me have a successful first course launch.

But over the years, things changed. My engagement went down and I blamed myself because I outsourced my self-worth to the number of likes or comments. I started frantically wondering what would “do well” rather than what feels most true and authentic to write about.

I longed for the Instagram of old, and I was emotionally attached to what the platform used to be that it took years to see what it had become - and be honest about the toxic relationship I’d developed with it, and by extension, myself.

Everything snapped when a girl who followed me realized I thought differently than she did about an Important Social Issue. She went on a rampage and left me negative book reviews, defaming my character.

I was already on the verge of burnout, but something snapped, and I logged off for a few years to focus on my health.

I’ve done a lot of inner work to separate my sense of self worth from the amount of engagement I get, or even the sales I make.

I still post occasionally on Instagram, but it’s mostly repurposed things from my blog.

I do feel that writing and helping women identify their true soul gifts through an online business is my purpose, but I’ve realized the effort to maximize likes on social media actually detracts from that bc it waters down my true message.

It’s hard to see people going viral or building big audiences for their ideas when my growth sometimes seems to have stalled. It’s easy to think if I just rearranged my words in a certain way, then I’d get more likes.

But realizing purpose and releasing our true creative work requires a willingness to quiet the noise, get validation from within and stop performing for an algorithm - instead releasing the gifts that are actually inside of us.

It’s been a powerful personal growth opportunity. That book just to say - I really resonated with this post! Maybe I need to write my own :)

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Nynoshka R's avatar

I look forward to reading everything you have to say. Thank you so much for this 🩷

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